Day 26 of Grief: Feeling Everything and Nothing

I’m dealing with the death of my husband nearly four weeks ago and my son’s out, so I can’t, I don’t feel like reading, I don’t feel like watching anything. I just don’t feel like doing anything. I don’t know what I feel.

I took a diazepam because I was starting to stress a wee bit out.

I don’t even know what I want to talk about. It just, it just feels at the moment like this is it.

Dan’s out at a party, which is good, like he’s out.

But for me, it just feels like if I’m not keeping busy, I’ve nothing to do.

I’m just lying on the sofa.

Even if I wanted to watch something on TV, I just can’t get my head around concentrating on something. Anything.